ClOuDy fLUfFy Clouds

mood: melancholy

music: "Never be replaced" by first lady

Exams had finally ended! Yeah. Great, isn't it? However, it will not be that fabulous when i look at my result slip! I think it will be made up  of Us, Ss and Es. If i have any E in the first place. Today has been a roller coaster ride for me! I have just found out that one of my friends are withdrawing from the school! I was so shocked when i found out from my friends and when he actually confirm the news himself. Anyway hope the best for him in pursueing his dreams.
Back to me. Haha, how's weird! Every things is supposed to be about me. Life seem very bleak at the moment. Sometimes, i think that it maybe easier that i just give up. Take for example today's physics paper. I nearly gave up halfway. However, when i look at the plenty amount of time and thinking about how screwed up i will get if i scored 1/100, i persevered and tried to complete it. Feeling kind of frustrated with myself, i seriously regretted that i have been slacking throughout the holiday!
My friend cried today after math paper. I feel even depressed. Don't know why i feel quite of numb with failing tests. I used to cry if i had done badly or simply because i never get the ideal grade. However, coming to JC, i simply feel sad but no tears came out. Think that i just really hitting the lower part of the curve in my life. Haha, trying to poetic. Yet it come out like some math curve.=__=
Feel like watching shows but i don't think i can get to enjoy them. Well, and the fact that nobody to accompany watch any movie. Recently, there're quite a few show liked wanted, Zohan and many others. 
I want to watch ghost whisperer and lord of the ring and two towers. Love this trilogy. Especially Legolas acted by Orlando Bloom!
Don't know what is happening to me. Feel like crying but there's just no tears. Then there's feel like something on my chest that which i can't get rid of. Feel like suffocating.
Hope that tomorrow will be a better day though i doubt it will be one happy day for me. Tomorrow will be handing out chemistry paper. My goodness. 
Have a few songs to recommend you! "Slow me down" by Emmy Rossum, "Never be replaced" by first lady, "Goodbye" by Joey Moe. love these songs. 
If only life is a smooth and sailing one, a world without misery and just happy moment.=__= I think it will be nice this way. Today i have a different view regarding fate. Fate is kind and cruel. It sounds so cool right? However, i think it is nothing like me...sounds as if i am possessed by some spirit or something.

Hope that i am not someone that can be easily replaced in your life.