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Hai will i make it to j2 this year? it is still unknown. My result was bad 2 subjects did not meet the promotion criteria. Told my mum the result and she doesn't really like it. it feel a bit hurt when your loved ones said something harsh...it is not as easy as it seem. I put my best in already yet it still does not really show.
Hai anyway everybody that i spoke to only tell me one thing: wait and see. so it is like a ticking bomb in my life these days...i guess i will only be relieved until 5nov.
Oh my gosh...falling in love with Mariah Carey's songs again. haha you must listen to obsessed, angels cry and more!!

Just as my future does...covered by an layer of haze. I don't know what to do or hope anymore. Tmr will be the day that i will roughly know if i get to proceed or face the same failure i did as last year. Some improvements are made yet it always seem to be not enough for some people. I hope that even if i did well for chem i will not be breaking down in front of 203. Then at least i will retain the little pride i have. hehe...still love 08s204 more. hehe
Actually today a bit upset that meihui and xinyi cannot go kbox together. Haiyo but never mind lah... haha we went to seoul garden anyway...so full!!! haha thn stupid jiyun don't let me spend money to try to get the winnie the pooh in the arcade. haha but i hope i can win the bet with her lah...so she can get me what i want.lol then she buy the panda carebear keychain.=___=
I wanna watch supernatural!!! can channel5 show this??
wanna watch online but it was loading at snail rate lo=(
Now watching

封神榜之武王伐纣  

haha don't know nice or not leh.lol
ok la will update soon=)

Promos have just ended. I am kind of feeling scare about the uncertain future. It is really hard to tell if i will get promoted or not. I hope next week will not be a teary week. Hehe... haha other than thinking about this, have been really catching up on my sleep, reading chinese novels, watch dramas, listening to radio play, listening to songs and watching manga. hehe. The 广播剧 that was collaborated with 100.3FM and city chain 礼物 is really nice. if you interested in listening tell me hehe i send u the link. i also like this song by jerry yan.


haha i am really looking forward to tmr=) will be meeting xinyi and meihui=D my dear dear friends.haha we going kbox. really misses them...hehe

Just found this song while taking a break from study! I am seriously worried and feeling a bit helpless=X
But let you listen to this song.

Hehe i went to watch final destination 4 3D with my sister yesterday. It was as usual, pretty gross. Didn't catch all the disgusting parts, covered my eyes.
( spoiler for final destination4 haha )

( FoR thoSE wHo CarES fOr me )
Hehe thank those who read the long long para of rantings i have. Hehe it show that you cares *hugs* I will stand up if not later some people say i not resilient...hehe...

GOsh i can't stand it anymore. Can you just spare more thoughts for others? It is getting on my nerve. By right tmr i can sleep until 0730. then because of a interprogramme game that you organise, i have to sacrifice my sleep and my time to complete more homework to be crazy with you. I seriously tell you if you do think you can bond the whole group of people together by this game, i think you seriously have something wrong with you. You are just wasting my life away. You think i think i care about bonding with other people at this moment. I am telling you this year is an important year for me and i am very pissed. Seriously. I am not like someone who can tolerate nonsense from you. I don't care if the rest think this is so fun or what. I am seriously pissed. I could have slept more one.

Phew! Please ignore the above paragraph. lol=D It is just a string tugging at my heart that i feel like if i don't blog i will die of anger. =x
I need to re-energize. Battery seriously low. Actually i was in the mood of doing homework and then sleep. Then some people has to ruin it. Imagine you have plan a day out to relax and have fun then some people has to throw a pile of work at you. This is the feeling i have now. I also can't imagine which teacher actually give the nod to start this thing. What is the use of allowing people to come for a late morning? Furthermore, wednesday usually ends later than usual. Supposingly the coming late in the morning is to compensate for the late afternoon then now what? i have to suffer because of some people who think they are so great in organising this type of nonsense. I am PISSED... 

Have been relaxing and reflecting these days. Some of you may have observed that i am getting more and more restless these days. However i will be back to myself in no time. First of all Happy birthday to siti!=D
Okay, i also found 1 video that i would like to share with you guys. The trailer of the upcoming movie in Nov 2009: New moon trailer. Please watch! It is nice=P
So nice i will definitely catch it=D
Feeling sleepy although i have slept throughout the day=(
so byebye

I got back all of my results already. A bit better than what i have did last year. Though i think i still disappoint my parents. Even my sister said that i repeat one year already should be better. However, i think what do you want out of me? I did put in the effort for it already. Sometimes it is a different thing when you are doing paper, okay. You think i don't wanna do well? Luckily the counsellor never pester me that much this time round but i still detest going to see her which will be quite soon i think. Feeling seriously restless these few days. Seem to be stoning more than what i should be doing. Not in the mood to mug and i realised that i have been listening to music with increasing loud volume these days.
Another matter that is bugging me these few days is that person. Please i try to be good to you but i seriously can't stand it when you do not know how to gauge what you are doing. There is a limit to everything. Please don't go over this limit. It is getting on my nerves and i can't seem to be as nice as i should be to you. It has come to a stage when i hear your voice i feel a bit pissed. BUt nevermind i will get used to it hehe...
I am proud of myself too hehe i never cry this mid year=D haha good right. Though i feel really upset about math and chemistry. Cause i really put in a lot of effort into these two. Guess i Just do not have flair in these subJect so i must work super hard hehe
i think i need this weekend to re-energise myself! Hand in there! You already make it through the difficult period last year so this year must give in all the best you get! Can make it this year!(seriously hope so) =)
Jiayou Jiayou =P
 

Next week we will be getting back our papers for mid year. I don't know what to do already. There is seriously no turning back already. I think that i have done what i can for this test already. I hope i won't do that badly. However, i still feel a bit of despair. No matter how we do, i think i have no way out of the counselling sessions. But what can i say or what should i say to her? If only you can leave me alone. I miss 204 whereby everything is much more simpler in term of friendship. 203 is funny but then a bit complicated in friendship. I think i just have to be a bit nicer to that person. As long as that person don't get too overboard i will treat you nice. I understand that kind of feeling but sometimes, you have to do a lot of soul-searching. Not that we don't want to tell you but then what is the use of people telling you that you have problem and you don't really get it. It is time for that person to seriously wake up and reflect. Aiyo sometimes i think it is the best to shut up. The more you try to help the more troubles you get yourself into at times. But i be nice to you from now hehe not that i am not but i try to.
Getting a bit broke these days. I feel a bit sad these days. Spend money buy present for some people then still don't appreciate. Not like i got buy present for the opp sex so often lor. Next time get your GF to buy for you lah. we give you money lol complain so much.
haha now like Ron Ng a lot hehe his shows very nice. Now watching rosy business, war and destiny and revolving doors of vengeance. Haha just finish watching the brink of law for about the third time. Hehe a very nice show and i think Ron Ng is very outstanding in his acting skills in that show. Also watching a bit of my date with vampire 3. Also have to do homework.hehe but i do hw when the shows are loading while listening to cantonese songs. Think i have been a bit multi-tasking too much these days haha. Think it will stop in the following weeks. lol...have to get ready for promotions already.>.<